Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Drastic Change #1.

I guess this technically counts as Drastic Change #2, if I count that I'm no longer reading blogs as Change #1. However, THIS change somehow trumps all.

I just quit my job.

As in 10 minutes ago.

It sucked.

I cried.
A lot. In front of my boss (who was very kind and understanding...and who even gave me a hug at the end. Take THAT, Corporate America!).

If I was the drinking sort, I could see myself getting pretty wasted tonight - and not in a celebratory sort of way. No, it would be of the "scared-out-of-my-head, 'what have I done?!'" sort of way.

So, as I won't be drinking away my fears tonight, I can only hope the Universe sends me some good, supportive, calming vibes. And maybe some opportunity. And by "Universe," I mean God. Because if I ever needed an all powerful, all knowing, merciful Supreme Being it would be RIGHT NOW. Maybe He'll be extra nice and lavish huge success on my husband, like, tomorrow. Or maybe I'll just have to be consoled by some good, sweaty time at the gym tonight (since I skipped it at lunch). Or just maybe the husband will take me out for some gelato after dinner. And maybe they'll have my favorite Fratte and Nuttella flavors. And I'll get an extra scoop.

Although...if that last option comes to fruition, it better be accompanied by the aforementioned gym time.

Balance. And simplicity.
Those are my goals. I hope I'm on my way.

16 comments:

Nic and Bekka said...

Jill, I'm so happy for you!! I know it's probably terrifying right now, but hopefully there is a little bit (or a lot!) of self-empowerment in there too. I have so much respect for you and am so excited for you and whatever your future holds.

Elise said...

Change is always scary, but it is necessary for growth and success. You're on the right path. Hopefully I'll get to join you someday. Enjoy the gym and gelato...sounds like my kind of night.

Amelia . Lyon said...

HOLLA! Yayyyyyyyy!!!! I knew this day would come and I am SOOOOOOO happy for your new found freedom!!! The big man upstair will definitely take care of you, I KNOW IT!! Love you sister!

Nicole Wright said...

Jill, I might join you in this unemployment venture (but don't tell my principal yet)!

I am making a trip the The House this weekend and will slip your name to the Good Lord with mine.

Does this mean you will all the time in the world to hang out with me in the summer? :)

Amy said...

Jill I know you are scared, but you will be taken care of, you will see, its a huge bold leap, but I have seen it time and time again the lord provides a way. Proud of you guys for making such a scary change.

You will LOVE the time you get to spend with your Lola! Even if you are poor, and even if you eat PB and J for every meal, it makes up for it.

Some days are really really really hard it's a lot different from a career behind a desk, but its filled with just as much and more joy.

Sharla Watene said...

Jill, I can completely relate to everything your said. It was SOOOOO scary to quit but I'm so happy I did. There have definitely been ups and downs but I know I'm a happier and healthier person for my son. We love and miss you guys!

April and Wes said...

We've so been there. But, somehow it all works out, and you will be even happier in the end. Yes, it is scary but so worth it.

lyndsey said...

first of all kudos on the no blog reading thing; i need a good detox from blogdom once in a while too.

and secondly i cried when i quit my job TOO! haha. the thought of no full time job really freaked my freak for a while but now that it's been almost one year i can definitely say that it was a GREAT move. i don't know what your plans are for the future but i know you'll love it. now go eat some gelato.

Ruth said...

I am so happy for you. I know how scary it feels. You are gonna be the BEST stay at home mom ever!!!! Maybe Lola and davy need playdates.

The Brady Bunch said...

Good luck with everything Jill! You and your hubby are amazing people and you are watched over every day by many people. Change is scary, especially big change, but it can also lead you to bigger and better paths in life-such as getting to spend more time with your little Lola, which will be amazing all on its own. Lots of love and prayers your way from ours.

Kory said...

I kind of got sick to my stomach for you when I read that. That's a big step. Like everyone said, it will all work out. It's interesting how these kinds of decisions help you realize what's most important. Maybe I missed the motive, but was it to be home with Lola? I'm happy for you. And when you really think about it, the worst case scenarios aren't all that bad, because you will still have your family.

Sami said...

wow! Welcome to the club. It was hard a first, i always felt like I wasn't doing anything, but now I wouldn't trade it for anything. You will love it.I mean who doesn't want to be with Lola all day. congrats!

Sarah said...

I hope everything goes well for your little family. I'm still debating going back to work after I have the kid. It took me along time to find a job after grad school, and now that I have one I love, I don't know what to do...

I'm happy for you guys.

Kat Clark said...

Jill I am so happy for you. I kinda saw this coming. I can't imagine how hard it must have been and what a huge leap of faith this must have been for you. Congratulations on going with your gut. I am just about to move to Kauai in July and the only thing I am sad about leaving in Tucson is my whole gym life and classes. It sounds silly but it's a huge part of my life and it brings me a feeling of success and true joy to be able to teach all the time. That being said, I got some great advice from an almost stranger about the whole thing. She told me I was so lucky to have the opportunity to reinvent myself. In fact, I've had that opportunity quite a few times in my married life and it really is exciting. I know that whoever you reinvent yourself into will be just as amazing as the Jill from before. Big hugs and lotsa love. You're awesome.
p.s. total novel. :D

jenn (+ will) said...

i'm so excited for you jill :)

Rivkah Wilberg said...

I'm Kenny's Cousin and I have been following you for months now. I am so impressed with you! I wish that I knew you better because it seems like I would be blessed for it. Amazingly enough, God probably will bless Kenny to start making more. Everytime I have had another baby, my husband has gotten a better job or a raise. It is amazing. Being a mother 24/7 is everything that you believe it to be, so stay optimistic about every situation and you will NEVER look back!